The man I love has a complex heart ailment, he shuns me away at times because of this...I am not afraid of his death—I accept God's will. I am afraid of the not living the best we can while we are full of life. My question is, "Will he be back?" I love him and will be here for him till the day I stop breathing.

From Archangel Azrael:

Be comforted, blessed child. It is a wise choice not to fear death. Love never changes, although the soul must transform. All manner of miracles are possible. The purpose of human experience is to live as fully as possible. If he shies from what God needs of him, then he will be back to correct this.

You are not afraid, so the question becomes: If he must come back, will you be here? Such fine love is this that is so willing to let love free. It has come back to you many times, and it will again. Do not fear for yourself. Do not fear for him. All is in divine order even that you asked this question. He shuns you not because of his physical heart, but because accepting such perfect love is his last challenge here—which does not mean that you should make yourself more perfect; it means that he must allow his gift.

You are concerned that he come back, not because you love him, but because you feel you are not good enough to make him understand what unconditional love is. This is faulty thinking. It will actually be much easier for him to love you when he crosses. Will you love yourself enough to see that you have done perfectly what was only a small piece of your divine purpose? Live in peace with what you know, Beloved. We see you, and we ask that you see yourself as we see you.

Is the reason I am having so much trouble because I have gone down the wrong path?

From Archangel Azrael:

Please understand that right and wrong are always relative. Things are not necessarily hard because you went down the wrong path. Sometimes things are hard because the soul needed a difficult task to learn something important. The fact that you are asking this question tells me that you have a feeling you went the wrong way. We are often discouraged from paying attention to these feelings, which may be why you are confused.

Emotions are compasses in the soul’s journey. One person’s compass is going to point West, and that West-pointing person may try to convince you that West is the best way. While this person may be loving and well intentioned, understand in yourself that your compass is pointed East. 

Find some quiet time to feel your emotions about the situation you are in. If you feel you are on the wrong path, ask your inner guidance what you need to do to be on the right path. You can always get back there. If you have to make a radical change to get back to the place where you are in integrity with your emotions, understand that this journey going the wrong way was actually a part of your journey to the right way.

Please be gentle and never beat yourself up. There is no failure. It is all learning process.